“Blanket” (21/30) – NaPoWriMo 2014

Soft and grey and full of you,
It keeps me warm
It holds me close
When you can’t.
This blanket where you said you’d hide
Instead of leaving.
A tiny part of me believes you.
So I wrap myself in it
And imagine your arms.
You gave me
Blanket baggage.

22/04/2014
© Bonnie Calderwood Aspinwall 2014

Dive Horse

One for years
Two find it hard to be
An imperfect disunion
Tried by halves

Half the pot of gold
Now so unlucky
Half the future prospects
Made bitter by division

One of a pair
One chair
Sad and alone
Without its twin

Half a dream
No use alone
Part can be patched
The other is irreparable
A mountainous absence
Impossible to breach

Half of my heart
No clean bisecting slice
No cut from start to finish
But one unending tear
Uneven edges
Still bleeding
Neither neat
Nor simple
A constant rip at the seams

My life essence is stretched thin
Impotent over the distance
Life is not like life
When souls can’t feel

How can I live
When my heart
Is in two places?

25/02/2010
© 2014 Bonnie Calderwood Aspinwall

Away From You

Waiting for the train
Laughter numbs the pain
Sudden rush of pride
Tearing me inside
Shouldn’t want to cling
Spoiling everything
But holding you I cry
Don’t want to say goodbye
To lose another friend
All good things must end
Now living’s hard to do
So far away from you

22/11/2009
© 2014 Bonnie Calderwood Aspinwall